I've decided that I'm going to go college. I know, I know. Some UW school, probably Milwaukee or Whitewater. I've decided I want to go for two years double majoring in English/English Education and Writing with a minor in Spanish. I will also be taking German language classes, as well as serious mathematics. A lot to take on I realize, but this year will prove if I can handle it, so it will maybe change in a few months. After which I will want to transfer to Madison, which will make my commuting way easier. After college, I will have approximately ten thousand dollars, if things go according to plan. But they won't so after some hardcore working, I will have more cash. Then I will also get ten thousand from my mommy for finishing college, which will be used to buy a car with a little later on. With my own money I will be moving to either, England, Scotland, Spain, or Germany coming back for special occassions (few birthdays, thanksgiving, and Christmas/New Year's.) then while there I will buy my car. This is my tenative plan for my life. Very minor details still to be worked out.

tell me what you think...

I'm writing this here because I am unsure you will read it. If you do, well then you do. However, if you don't, then at least I won't feel so awkward of bringing this out. You asked if I loved you or if I was IN love with you. I said I couldn't answer that. Frankly, I couldn't. Now, I think I can give something at least. I know that I love you. In all honesty, however, I am unsure as to why. I mean, how can I trust the situation? I don't think I can. That hurts me. I feel hurt. But I know I know that I do love you. For the part of beign in love with you, I am not as certain as I am with the loving you, or as much as I'd like to be. There's just this something about you that really just makes me enjoy life. it's such a similar feeling, yet I think it's stronger. I don't know how to explain it at all. I can only say it is complicated. So this is what I'm saying about infatuation about you. From my, for lack of better words, observations, I know you have something too, the question is, I guess for me, would you reveal that. I don't know. And this is the dilemma that has been bestowed on me, and I don't know how to handle it...

----Alisha Louise----

Tim: have you ever noticed in Star Wars, each planet has a theme and usually one theme only?
Tim: like Tatooine is the Desert World
Tim: in Ep 3 they has the Magma World
Tim: in Ep 2 they had that Water World
Tim: Watching Star Wars is like playing a Mario game
Alisha: hahahah!
Alisha: OMG
Alisha: I did not notice that
Alisha: lol
Tim: Couroscant is the City World
Tim: Hoth is the Ice World
Tim: the moon of Endor is the Jungle World
Alisha: and that was the past, a long time in the future the earth will be born and have all of those qualities within time
Tim: we're also far, far away from this
Alisha: That too...
Tim: ;-)
Tim: Where's Jenny?
Tim: I have to tell this to her
Alisha: Planets started mating, and after all of them had sex with each other the earth was born...
Alisha: OMG!!!
Alisha:THE EARTH IS LIKE CHAUNCEY!!!
Tim: hahahahaha
Alisha: I'm scared
Alisha: I'm putting this in my blogs...

^that was the best conversation ever lol

29 ways to make a girl smile .

1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hott, fine, or sexy. ( cute's good 2)
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it's just for a second.
3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times. (but mean it!)
6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you. (and mean it!)
7 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
8 . Sing for her......even if it's horrible
9 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
10 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
11 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
12 . Play with her hair.
13 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
18. Take care of her, even when she is sick.
19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
20 . Give her piggyback rides.
21 . Have interest in what she does.....however annoying at times.
22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
26 . Kiss her in the rain.
27. Smell good whenever possible
28. If your in love with her . . . Tell her
29. Spend time with her.

Asking alot isn't it??

Period   Semester   Class               Teacher

Okay, two months exaclty.

Okay, so in my last post, I said I was spending time with AJ lots... yeah that kind of died. I had posted that earlier in the day. We broke up... Like a week ago... and yet I still feel heartbroken. I don't know... It was 15 days, it's not like much can happen in 15 days right? Then why would I be so tore up about it? uhg... This happens when I drop put my guard down... I become vulnerable... and then I lose everything... I shouldn't feel like this. Of course the only reason you know this all is cuz I'm telling you. I wouldn't dare show you how I'm dying inside, that would be crazy... who shows emotion, really... Stupid Heart. It was 15 days and that's it ... ... ... ... ... ... Dammit...  I hope we can at least be friends... well, crap...

OMG how sometimes I wish I could go back 3 years and friggin change my path... friggin's not stray away from friendships I prolly never should have lost... but then I wouldn't have the memories I do. I would've missed a year and ten months of what, I won't deny as, the happiest time of my life. I wouldn't have the friendships I ahev now... But what about those friendships I've lost. threads are holding us together and that kills me inside too. and I prolly would never have had those friggin 15 days... I swear... why am I feelign this way... It shows obssessiveness... (is that a word) how can one person get so attached to one person in that amount of time, and yet the other person doesn't feel for you the way you feel for them. damn damn damn-damn damn. *sigh* I hate myself right now. So much stupidity...

I can say all this too, cuz I've noticed none of my friends read this anymore... which is just as well... but yeah, I can rant all I want apparently... Sides I think telling someone soemthng would go against my battle witht he emoptions again...  I have a lot typos that I'm just not fixing lol...  I hate that fricken battle... emotions suck... well... yeah they just suck...

Posted at 10:04:56 pm by AluvsD4evr